It's been difficult lately in my walk with God and having made that decision, i will live by it.
I know that in this walk, i will have to forsake many people/things in my life. I know that it will be difficult but i have utmost faith in you God. for it is you who gives me Hope in a better tomorrow.
It has been crazy and I've been having my heartstrings pulled all over the place so much so that its all knotted up. But, its alright i guess because only through this can i learn what suffering is and having faith is.
I'm glad, however, that i have people that have been here for me. People like, Shuwei, Kellie (my sister), Deborah Leo, Deborah Lee, Deborah Chia, Beatrice, Emmerlyn, Randy, Amos, Christopher, my family, my PArts friends. Most importantly, i have you dear Lord. Thank you for all these wonderful people who have made it a point to brighten my day even in the darkest of times.
My heart is torn just like how she tore our picture that is still in my wallet (in two). However, life has to go on. Even though she hates me now, i hope one day she will be able to see just as how i have seen too.
I pray tomorrow will be a better day even though the pain seems to worsen every second. I will always remember the good times and smile at them even as the tears that streak down my face continues like an ever running tap. Thank you for them. I want to try and move on even though it seems so impossible.
Irwin Zephyr Tan.
The Lord is my Shepherd.
I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside quiet waters.
He restores my soul.